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As I sit here on Christmas morning, awake since around 5 am, I have had plenty of time to reflect on the true meaning of this \u2018holiday\u2019. To say this past year has totally humbled me would be an absolute understatement. In my humbling, I\u2019ve come to see people for who and how they truly are, the blinders and rose colored glasses were snatched off my face with quite a bit of aggression because I refused to remove them myself. The one, well two, bright spots in my life are still sleeping and they are truly my reason for living.<\/p>\n

Every year, people rush around, being rude and aggressive, going into debt to find the perfect, most expensive gift they can for those they love because they believe that\u2019s how they show how much they care. \"ImageUmmmm, no. I\u2019ve never been the type to buy just to buy for another person, I always bought to bring a smile to their face with them receiving what they truly desired. Now, it hasn\u2019t always been very expensive due to the fact I\u2019m very fragile, I don\u2019t buy anything that isn\u2019t on sale, it feels wrong to pay full price somehow. What\u2019s always mattered to me has been seeing them open gifts and their eyes light up over a funny t-shirt of their favorite Barbie\u00ae doll or even a 5-pack of cheesy lip balm. When it comes to people outside of my children, I buy the same way, to touch their spirit and that\u2019s something you can\u2019t put a price tag on.<\/p>\n

I will openly own and admit this has been a tough year for me but what has made it easier are those 2 angels who call me Mommie. I am beyond blessed that, no matter any outside influences, I don\u2019t have materialistic, label demanding children who are happier with a $5 Barbie\u00ae doll than the $25 one in fancier packaging. Oh, don\u2019t get me wrong, I\u2019ve never bought them off-brand Barbie\u00ae because those are extremely cheaply made with the hollow arms and unbendable legs but they do have less expensive ones out there that won\u2019t hit your pocket so hard.\"Image I\u2019ve learned, thru watching my daughters, buying them any and everything they want doesn\u2019t make them want to be around you any more than if you bought them nothing. My children know and understand who people truly are and, even if they don\u2019t care for you, they\u2019ll never be disrespectful or even let you know they don\u2019t care for you, only I am privy to that information. Now, don\u2019t get me wrong, one of them will always go to the store with certain people because they know they\u2019ll get whatever they want and the other will stay at home on her computer and not ask for anything. The one who rushes to tag along does so, not just to get candy and snacks but, to get out of the house and not necessarily because you\u2019re a such fandamntastic person.<\/p>\n

When I had to have the very hard conversation with my girls that this Christmas would be very light, they touched my heart and spirit so much it brought tears to my eyes because they said, \u201cThat\u2019s okay, Mommie, we didn\u2019t even ask you for anything. We just want to wake up with you on Christmas\u201d<\/em>. Again, I ask, what did I do so great in my life to be blessed with these 2 angels? \"ImageThis parenting and adulting shit is HARD but when you have daughters such as mine, it becomes a little easier to wake up and strive to do and be better for them because they truly deserve nothing but the best.<\/p>\n

Being a single parent and having to share holidays with the other half of their beginning is hard. I remember and cherish the days when we\u2019d all wake up in the same house, open gifts, cook breakfast and then get dressed to hit the houses of loved ones but that\u2019s no longer our lives. I embrace the change because it has revealed what really matters most and that\u2019s quality time spent. It\u2019s not about the pile of overpriced gifts under the tree which will soon enough be physically lost or have lost their appeal within a few months, those material items aren\u2019t what matters as your children get older.<\/p>\n

This is only one day, one frickin\u2019 day of the year, and shouldn\u2019t be the only time you show your loved ones you care because you\u2019re supposed to be doing it the other 364 as well. If you haven\u2019t been embracing your loved ones all year long, why start now? If you stay focused on this one day, what happens on the 26th<\/sup>? Do you just go back to doing you and relieved you have another 364 days to do for yourself? Some of us look forward to the holidays because we live states away and can\u2019t wait for the reunions with our family but why does it have to be centered on a commercialized \u2018holiday\u2019? Why not take time off work in March or August just to hang out with them? When you wait a year, much has happened in both of your lives and some of our loved ones may not be here to celebrate a certain holiday the next year. Take it from someone who\u2019s lost half of their beginning, every day is a special day with the ones you love. It doesn\u2019t matter if you\u2019re just sitting on the couch watching football or some crime show, that\u2019s quality time spent with your loved one you\u2019ll never get back. \"ImageYes, with my sister now living states away from me, I understand travel can be expensive but trust and believe me when I tell you, it costs less when it\u2019s just an \u2018average\u2019 time of year to travel.<\/p>\n

If you have the money to spend on some expensive sneakers or the latest game system, do it but only if it\u2019s what they truly desire and will make their soul smile. Don\u2019t lavish your loved ones with expensive gifts if you haven\u2019t taken the time to sit down and get to know them on a deep and personal level the rest of the year. When our children are all grown up with careers and children of their own, the things which will stay in their minds and hearts are the memories of Christmas Eve rituals of baking cookies and getting new jammies. \"ImageThey won\u2019t remember how you went into debt to get them the flyest gear and game systems if the simple things weren\u2019t done. I don\u2019t know about you but I want my children to carry forth the simple, and some might call corny, things I enjoy doing with them such as playing board games while eating pizza or baking cookies the night before or decorating the trees as a family. When my father passed, I lost my Christmas spirit and it was hard for me to put up a tree but it means so much to my girls that they took over and put our trees up for me as a surprise and to make things easier on and for me. When I couldn\u2019t, they picked up the Christmas spirit and helped me continue our traditions because it was what they looked forward to. \"ImageThese are the traditions they will carry on with their children because I\u2019ve carried the forward with mine from my parents. I say it all the time and will continue to say it, \u201cIt\u2019s the little things which matter most<\/em>\u201d.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been blessed to have angels placed in my life and give birth to two. One of my angels happens to be my best friend. Regardless of the trials and tribulations we\u2019ve experienced, she\u2019s always been there for me, even if we\u2019re beefing she checks on me and the girls. She, too, is a single mom and has opened her home for those of us without family members, who are close, on Christmas day to have spirited beverages, more food than we can eat, and fellowship with others. \"ImageThis is why she is my best friend: no matter how much I may want to sit in my house and wallow in sorrow that I don\u2019t have my girls for the remainder of the day, she\u2019s told<\/strong> me I\u2019ll be there even if she has to come and get me herself. She loves genuinely from her heart of gold and I\u2019m blessed to have such a kind, loving, blunt person in my life who won\u2019t let me feel lonely on Christmas.<\/p>\n

Well, my girls have each already half waken up, come to give me my Christmas hug and gone back to bed. I guess it\u2019s time for me to brew some coffee, get breakfast prepped and gather some porn clips to share with those who are going to insists on including me on a group text at some point today. \"ImageY\u2019all have a Merry Christmas, kiss those babies, continue those traditions and know each and every day is a reason to celebrate life, love, family, and happiness with the understanding that none of those come with a price tag because they are priceless and irreplaceable. \u00a0\"Image<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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